I had worked all day, hadn’t eaten enough, and had gone to the gym for a good workout. So I was REALLY HUNGRY! I had to stop at the grocery store-not to shop, but to pick up a non-food related item. I found myself roaming the store with no cart…drooling over the prepared foods in the deli-mashed potatoes, French fries, and macaroni and cheese. I found my feet carrying me inexorably toward the bakery-my nemesis. As I stood there mesmerized by the cupcakes with their creamy frosting, cookies chock full of chocolate chips and crunchy nuts, and rich gooey brownies, I felt like I would have happily sold my soul to the devil just to eat one bite!
By some miracle, I managed to leave the store empty-handed
If you’ve read any of my recent blogs, you know that I am working hard to restore my gut microbiome to a more healthy balance of bacteria and yeast. http://chefamynutrition.com/listen-to-your-gut/. Part of that process is avoiding any foods that contain sugar, grains, or processed ingredients. I’m lucky that I have lots of experience as a professional chef, so I know how to cook healthful food at home, and while I was roaming that store I knew that I had plenty of good things to eat that wouldn’t spike my blood sugar, feed the undesirables in my gut, and impede my progress, but driving past the McDonald’s had me fantasizing about a Big Mac and fries. I could have a lovely piece of grilled salmon with Brussels sprouts and crumbled bacon (uncured, pastured and sugar free of course), or some homemade meatloaf (grain free and made with grass fed beef) sliced and cooked in butter to a nice crispy crust , or a nice fresh salad with grilled chicken and a homemade dairy free ranch dressing. Before I knew that my unhealthy microbiome was in control of my cravings, I would completely give in…I have been known to stop by a bakery and pretend to be purchasing several items for a group, then eat everything in the car before even getting home. It was almost like my brain was being hijacked, and I was powerless to stop it. As soon as I had finished eating ALL of the pastries, the self recrimination and guilt would start almost immediately. But knowledge is power, and I have been finding myself able to more easily make the choice to decline feeding those beasties in my belly what they want…sugar.
I am not perfect, and I have given in to some of my sugar urges.
I hate to say it, but I am in fact an imperfect being, and sometimes the cravings win. The world is full of stressors, unexpected twists and turns, and difficult situations, and the only thing that will make it better is a Hagen Daaz milk chocolate covered ice cream bar with almonds (or three). The trick now is not to fall into a downward spiral of guilt, self hatred, and continued bingeing and THAT is the biggest lesson I need to learn. How about you?
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